To feel the onset of the "end".

         Every journey, including life has an associated timeline with it. When we start any journey, we are hit by anxiety. I began my engineering life on August 23,2010. The very first day of my college was just awesome. I still remember physics was the first lecture I attended and concentration at that time was at its best. It's been 4 years now and still these memories haven't faded.
       After 10 years of school life and 2 years of junior college life i was all set for this engineering life. With much expectations, I traveled by Mumbai local to my college's location. Since I wasn't used to travel by the local train , I had a friend to accompany me on my first day. On the morning of August 23, when i tried to enter into the college, I was stopped by the watchman demanding a proof of I being in this college(I wondered, on the first day itself the college tried to disown me..but was wrong though..:). After some fuss, I was let in. In a huge campus of my college, I was a lone wanderer like many others who were there with me. Two buildings and not knowing which building housed my class. Being in a group always helps and finally after some brute force method of search, we found our class. The professor who was teaching physics was a thin person, bald to some extent. The whole class was silent when I entered, engrossed in what the professor was teaching.
   Following the lecture, we had a break of 45 minutes. On the first day itself, I was a bit tensed as to how I would interact with my seniors. However, everything went off well with the seniors. After two lectures passed in a similar sense, we had a practical session. Here we were asked to work in a group of two. I worked with a guy there who had a chilled attitude towards life. I was pretty much indifferent towards bunking lectures owing to my school days and sincere attitude. We often bunked and to beat my tiredness I would come home and sleep again(though now bunking is associated with activities other than sleeping for me).I often remember bunking on Wednesday's after my practical session would get over. Unfortunately, this guy moved on to some other college. I still remember the times I spent with him, we enjoyed a lot.
   He left, but I met people who have added value to my life later on and today I am glad to have such people in my life. To sum up, i sensed a feel-good factor on the first day of my college and I felt I will do something useful in these years, develop myself, work on interesting things and I am happy today that I have done it all.
  I just thought of expressing about my first day today because I got nostalgic thinking about how that day was. Currently, hardly a month remains for this journey to end. My experiences have been mixed and I am sensing emotional beats increasing in my heart as the end nears. Today, I feel.....the onset of the end has begun.....

"“The end is in the beginning and lies far ahead."
-Ralph Ellison

Get coloured!

   Wishing all my readers a very happy holi. May this festival bring happiness and contentment in each one's life. I relate colours to various aspects right from emotions, life,love,travel,people and locations on this earth to cite a few.
   Well, talking about emotions, as i have already stated in my article Emotions, they are responsible for making one's life colourful.Take red as anger,blue as sadness,green as acceptance,light red for joy I would apply all of them on my readers so that you experience a just balance of everything. Guyss..experience the highs and lows of life all are equally important. When i apply red colour on you, let all your anger w.r.t me be expressed(i just hope it doesn't turn out to be too red). Let blue represent all the sadness of yours caused by me, when i apply blue, let all those memories fade away. Light red of course, represent the joyous movements I and you may have spent.(I wouldnt mind if this becomes a bit more dark..:p).
   Talking about love, to all those immersed in here in this domain. Let Red be not a colour of anger for you all but a colour of Love. Though i would suggest one thing, even if the meaning of "Red" switches from Love to anger do not mind and revert back to the original meaning i.e love. Enjoy this wonderful feeling this holi.
   Travelling, to all those who love travelling and listening to songs. With each song played we remember all those moments which the songs points to. The blues of life, the good moments, the sad moments and all other wonderful moments of life.Travelling is never a waste of time but a time to analyse self, relax and listen to music and experience each colour and its meaning.
   Talking about people, we have numerous people in our lives. The ones who make us angry, the one who make us happy, the ones who make us confused, the ones who value us, the ones who irritate us. Each of these people represent a colour and all of them make up our life. Life will never be complete without all of them.
  Locations, to all those who can relate to various locations where we often spend good times, bad times and times where we get bored. Let all of them always be there in our lives.
   As it is said, we must enjoy these colours in our lives but at the same time also be careful from resulting imbalances and harms. 
I would appeal all my readers to play a safe holi.

Always for you, Mom and Dad!

             Do you all remember the days when you couldn't walk by yourself but trying to take your first few steps? Do you all remember the days when your fear for a particular thing would vanish with the motivational talks given by your father/mother?Do you all remember the days when you passed your first board exams??Do you remember the day when you got your first job?
      All the situations I mentioned above is what all of us remember. We remember how we reacted in those situations. What we sometimes forget or rather fail to acknowledge is the role of parents and their reactions in our achievements. More than us, they are happy for our achievements but their happiness often fades away in our lives. We are always busy informing our best buddies, loved ones(if any..:p). Getting a job was the most recent thing which happened and I still observe the happiness my parents portray for that. Going a bit back in the timeline of life, I remember the anxiety I had a day before my CET (entrance for engineering).  They were the ones who fueled my spirits when I needed it the most. Today, with God's grace and with my parents blessings, I am on the verge of completing engineering from a renowned institution.These are just a few events I mentioned and there are myriad number of them.
      I have in the past spoken about relationships and expectations. Would you all like to know the relationship which is the purest? A parent-child relationship, according to me is made from a womb where we are not yet "blessed" with any brain to get manipulative. We are at our modest best. Leave a small kid in the crowd and all you can hear him/her screeching for is his/her parents and not anyone else; irrespective of whether he/she gets manipulative later on in his.her life. Their rebukes have a huge component of love hidden in them. The love which reminds us of the righteous path we must take in life. As I mentioned in my previous article, the world is laden with illusions(Maya) which we are not able to make out sometimes. They guide us through to tackle all such illusions.
   Today, I see people telling me they need someone to love them, care for them. For that very moment I often self-talk "Oh, come on what is wrong with you, you have your parents, have you forgotten them??".  I again take this opportunity to emphasize on the point that people/objects which are the closest to us often loose value with time. This is a matter of grief. There shouldn't be any resistance or lack of excitement for new things or entry of new people in life but it is of much harm when that leads to deterioration in the value or ignorance of the old and near and dear ones. Keeping this aspect in mind, the worst condition that is seen today is leaving one's parents in an old age home against their wishes and thinking of them as a "load" in one's life. For one moment if we imagine the care, the relentless efforts they put to make us stand on our own feet, we will keep such thoughts out of our mind keep aside doing such things!
    For once one can imagine a loved one/friend leave but the ones who are always with you for whatever you are and will be are your parents.I have seen relationships where either of the person is ready to break the friendship for some or the other habit of other person. In case of our parents, they never talk of leaving on such issues which is why they love us unconditionally. When we fight with them, we do not need to have the fear of loosing them. We can be "ourselves" with our parents for rest all relationships we need to really be careful before things go out of our hands and the relationship ends.
   Today, I want to thank them for all that they have done for me, the sacrifices they have made for me. My heart is overwhelmed with emotions as I write this article. From sacrificing an ice-cream in our childhood to sacrificing their own fancy needs to satisfy our needs which are sometimes unworthy but valued more than their needs, they are the epitome of sacrificial behaviour. I am running out of words as I wish more and more to describe about them. The best gift of life is having your parents stand by you during all your problems as well as successes.My heart today reaches out to those who are deprived of parental love.Maybe I wont be able to imagine their plight.
   Dad and Mom, you  have been an inspiration to me and will be always valued and respected come what may.....always for and dad.